Anything about being kegemokan

lol i was stupid

2011-06-07T19:55:00.001+08:00

i am hunger with love..but love can't feed me in the moment..i wan to run and hide..when come to love i suck....

to qaseh

2011-06-06T10:53:00.004+08:00

if u read this post may u think im faggot..i been thinking a lot about u last 2-3 day.. thinking a way to help u but i can't help u..u to radical for me..ur soul is mess..u need bright light to colur ur life..i can provide that but not time yet..if i approach u right now u will hate me forever of rest ur life..

im kind of person believe on god..even do i living in darkness but im slowing down n looking for god in my heart..to attach person like u will make me floating..coz u strong n fix with ur ideology..too twist back on what u believe took time..im kinda rush and inpatient..im looking for love and feed me with that love become stronger..i need a women with strong heart like u..but there were several things i cannot accept about u..

its not ur ideology u about god..but certain things i cannot write because i cannot simply judge u like that..but i only can write is u too serious and hardly to find smile on ur face..women with no smile for me is no good..smile reflect to happiness...

like i said before happiness is everything for me...i dont care who u a what ur past either ur curve and sexy body i dont care about it..i only care is happiness btw us and if u really like me show me u wan to change..genuine smile and accept god because he will calm us in no matter what situation..

if u read this..thx..but i bet u will never find my blog but no matter of what this is things which play inside my mind recently...ur name kaseh affiqah is really beautiful name and i like so much..hope kaseh affiqah find his soul n concentrate to build life in world and also afterlife too..

life is bless

2011-05-31T15:41:00.001+08:00

it true!!!

decide to write today

2011-05-27T08:34:00.003+08:00

being so lazy at home...so in my head i just planning what i going to do after i quit danna..the danna is great place for ppl who just finish their study in hotel line because there a lots of training given.. danna is five star deluxe hotel..we sell both service and also product..

but my heart was not here..because there were many reason..one of the reason is i wan to experience the busyness while danna cannot provide yet...i learn many thing in danna...i got no problem with people in work place..beside ppl know me coz i always taking their photo..that is my part of contribution to danna for making people smile..

and for chikot..thanks for being honest..yeap when first i saw u, i already put interest on u but there a certain things in my mind bothering me a lot...u a super hot, know to socialize, got lots of friend, happening and u a u...i can read u based on ur photo..seriously i like the way u a...but reflect to me..i am opposite u..i.but i am happy being Halim Jeinie

yeap before i gamble my life looking for new job..i will try to get place in UiTM for continue my studies in Master..yes i will take only master of gastronomy other then that i rather to stay in hotel industry as a cook..

hmmmm...

Huwahhh

2011-03-25T18:22:00.002+08:00

I cannot sleep.. I dunno why..too much thingking lately.. About my job, money, friend and my feeling... Ppl know i m a good men.. But yet i still not deserve to anyone yet.. Owh ya life now is sux.. I hate my rate right now

see u next year aite

2010-12-31T13:26:00.004+08:00

well firstly i juz bought iphone4 2 day ago. i was surprise because its was too awesome and i own that...amazed with it feature and ton of application waiting for to try..the excited was still until now..

anyway tomorrow is a new year..so time to me not waste my money and start to saving some for my future use..and alhamdulillah what i promise during my birthday a still on and i proud of that..i slowly to change for my own good..

oh dear i love my i phone so much...

kegilaan gua terhadap nokia n8

2010-12-21T01:43:00.000+08:00

entahlah apa dalam pemikiran gua..xleh tido sebab menantang ni...8 hari gaji gua mmg sambar trus...harap2 la...gua cadang nk angkat kat maxis ja dpt la 8rat pastu amek package plg bawah value 50 ngan internet yg 18 hingit tu...kira bebaloi la...

another day in langkawi

2010-12-18T12:03:00.002+08:00

such a lovely place...the beach, mountain, waterfall, and people...but it still not enough to help me to get lose some matters...i am a bit depress, depress with social needs..right now i had low life activity...my best friend is my lappy, bed and junk food...i getting weight because to much this leisure activity..ITS NOT HEALTHY....

its okey

2010-12-13T14:34:00.002+08:00

when u with him i can see both of face showing something strange..i can feel the love very strong btw u and him ..so i decided to back off..i just wan both of u a happy.. no need me to inter frame, to me both of u a good couple..may god bless u two...

happy birthday halim

2010-12-12T13:30:00.000+08:00

thanks for all the wishes...

officially our hotel officially open

2010-12-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

after 6 month on joy and pain..we're a officially open..what ever is past consider history and the new day we take as a opportunity to growth and learn something new..yeah we know all off the staff a so fucking exhausted because everyone work very hard for the grand opening to become the best ever event for the hotel...even me also...working day and night to support all the staff and guest..small scarify i made is to make us happy..

now back on me...
life is complicated..
that all...
chow..

to u!

2010-12-07T02:24:00.004+08:00

sememangnya aku segan dgn dirimu..
biar aku pendam sahaja perasaan ini sebab kalau aku bersuara ia akan mengeruhkan lagi keadaan..
naluri hati aku menyatakan diri mu sangat unik dan cukup sempurna sifatnya untuk wanita idamanku..
bagi diri aku peribadi yang kau miliki cukup untuk melengkap diri aku dan seperti mana kehadiran aku di sisi mu mewarnai kehidupan mu..
aku tahu kau gadis tabah, mengambil berat, bersifat kekeluargaann dan sangat penyayang..
dari pergerakan dan perbuatan mu mampu menbawa sifat diriku lebih lengkap..
aku sangat menyukai diri kamu...
sifat kamu dan caramu menbawa diri..
alangkah bahagianya jika jiwamu ku miliki...
cuma Allah s.w.t sahaja mampu mentafsir betapa kebahagian itu..
itulah aku tercari-cari dan mencari...

red kebaya

2010-12-04T02:22:00.001+08:00

still can't take make eye from lady with red kebaya..

been ignored

2010-12-03T09:56:00.001+08:00

being ignored is so much pain..what to do i put my faith to hand of god..

no idea

2010-12-02T01:52:00.003+08:00

i am been depressed lately i dunno what wrong in my mind...obviously maybe i think to much about love..perhaps..arhhh i stress....i wish someone can cheers me and make me smile again...

promise of me

2010-12-01T18:13:00.003+08:00

i will prepared gift for my self during up coming sweet 24 years birthday..yeah during birthday ppl expect someone to give something for their birthday...then I'll break the ice by giving a gift to my self..sound awesome right...i decide to give my self a promise..promise to become better person...that its...to be better i need to quit several things..hopefully i manage to do that and i asking any kind of support to my dearest friend for me to change..aite...i hungry and today only eat fruit.......yummy

halim oh halim

2010-11-30T02:30:00.001+08:00

hmmmm....fail again to win a heart...keep on searching.....

yehaaa

2010-11-25T22:24:00.002+08:00

weeee they are visiting me tomorrow

dear diary

2010-11-24T02:28:00.002+08:00

nothing much to say...

word is like virus and everyone will not escape become their victim...let took this situation as example..let say a group of people consist 3 to 4 person start talking about their bad day during working period and one of them decide to quit his job..worst situation their talking in large of crowd and luckily 2 or more people heard their conversation and start thinking the same way too...

this people start talking among their group..because of level satisfaction on working environment is in red level creating the situation become more worst may result of people tend not to working and feel not happy....its become stress and started to thinks quality of life become faded...its happen to me....

12.25 am issue

2010-11-22T17:29:00.003+08:00

maybe this is the first bad comment for the hotel..and lucky it was me...sigh....35 minute become 45 minute when end to the story it become 1 hour...only one comment all unrelevent issue also pointing to me..unfair right..this is the reality..i don't have this kind of experience before now i do..i am a better men then yesterday..continue to growth and negative criticize won let me down...god bless me

ah i back

2010-11-21T17:26:00.003+08:00

wuhooooo i writing blog again....its been a while kan..hmmmmm...yeah hotel industry is really tough life and quite a challenging..anyways a lot of kejadian happen in few month....

about me,i use getting lonely now because every time i admired with girl, she always attach with someone..dah start dah crita pasal lonely ni....hahaha....so that why i afraid to go for it..i lost my confident..oh yaa...this girl really catch my eye...she are too good for me...she cute and i think she suite for me...

i don want to say she is beautiful because word beautiful is like curse word for me..let me explain why i said that....every time i said the word of "beautiful" to women which i admired, tendency 100% i will get broken heart so i decide will not said it to her even deep in my heart she is beautiful..and worst beautiful ladies is out of my league...which mean beautiful women to majority man's eye a not mean to be with me...accept miracle...hahaha....

so to raf opss i said it..hopefully she won read what i just wrote...yes i do admired u but i too afraid and i not good in flirting or what ever suitable word can replace word of flirt...

and to bu...yes we do have share a lot of common...i wan u to move on i scarify a lot of things to u...i wan u to pursue ur dream..u a intelligent and of course u a beautiful and sexy..haha...someone might get wrong or jealous with the bond between us..and he never understand...

wow...i really got my revenge after several month not posting any treat on my blog kan..glad i am back...i promise to update what ever things happen..n sory if i might hurt ppl feeling..i not tense to do that k...bye

empty

2010-06-10T21:48:00.003+08:00

the world so empty right now..i can feel it..after receiving degree i had nothing to do beside gather back my money..with empty world with less friend to depend on and i need someone to listen and voice up about my feeling and taking my moment as lonely man..this is me..i being like this because the hotel which i working right now still under construction and the empty time were filling with classes..i waiting for real action..i pray to be located in main kitchen..i really wan to cook proper fine dining food which to be serve to high-end holiday makers..i wan the credit, i wan to create my own guest or fan of my dish..my aim is high i wan to be executive chef in young age then i can continue with my dream to open up my own project..i need to gather knowledge and everything related on the food industry..

but now i was to lonely this kind of feeling can make me not concentrate on my vision.. i need some whom can i speak up to heard my problem to ensure i following my track..i know they(someone in the industry) can see i had a great future..i am young, educated, high spirit, got my own strategy to growth and it's depend on me my self to make it happen..i am different from others who a same age with me..

i inspired by all the makcik2 willing to study even they told me it very hard to adapt process of learning during their age..i advice them there is nothing possible in this world and depend in the individual to say NO or YES on each decision their make..

about my workplace were awesome place..but i miss the action...

tiada bintang di langit

2010-03-10T01:49:00.001+08:00

Hmmm....hmmm

langkawi of langkawi

2010-03-04T18:08:00.002+08:00

i miss my camera...seriously...but first of all i wan to get any transport so i can explore more on langkawi..then if i got a time i will return to miri seeing my parent, wondering around at my rest house, chasing boat in the morning seeing if any luck getting a lobster nyumm nyummm...hermm damn i miss miri...

i dunno why i feel langkawi is a place for me...the food kinda cheap, cigar cheap...nusantara methol only rm 3.20, one ringgit of cucur pisang u can get ten of it..not so much entertainment..erk i mean i just don't want to explore on entertainment that much..my live here go work back n sleep..not so much involved with social things..langkawi of langkawi...maybe i stay here at least 5 years if i got a car if no maybe less...my target here first is pelangi for starter because i don't have my degree yet and i got a cable..then after a year will be going to westin then later andaman or 4 session then later will join back my friend on city hotel..

after jump 5-6 hotel i will take a rest go for restaurant then later continue to the hotel or apply for master n phd then be a lecturer...insya-allah..

now going bck to use blog as medium to comfort my self

2010-02-11T01:06:00.003+08:00

No mood today..dunno wat i thingking rite now..tomorow i gonna walk on the beach..it might help me to reduce my loneliness cewah..sound like im tooo emo..klah gotta sleep..thx for blog for being good listener..thx

new chapter of our life

2010-02-08T02:39:00.000+08:00

Journey bcome a great chef juz begun..1 week i been work here as pizza cook..lucky me every chef help me lot..i know they can see my future..they wan me to get in management lvl someday..every day in here is pain for me but i took this prosess as a training by seeking their advice n learning by my heart..i feel to small in this organization..they train me to be mind like businessman by minimize all the expenses not like a school b4..so lucky to hav them..

But i facing this reality alone..when i need her,she won appear..sad for me coz the only women who i wish to share my joy n sadness does not appear when the time for me to comfort my self..i wish she be able to do same thing..i still waiting for this girl to cheers my life

owh like this

2009-11-29T12:03:00.001+08:00

so its end like this..okey...

its been a while

2009-11-28T08:25:00.002+08:00

i think that its...enough already to kept going telling lie to my heart..i do jelous to imran, i wan u to be my wife, i wan u be beter person, i will do encourage u to pursuite with ur dream..but until when i be like this..6 months of knowing u make my life colourful but until now i notice u a the innocent girl i ever meet..there a to many to of thing should be improve so u will be btr person..either so i..i keep telling u everything not with empty hand..me myself continue to remind me myself to improving become beter person...

basicly we a same..malas, comfort staying at home without doing nothing, having fun, crying baby and so on...but i wan to improve i drag u along with me so we both can be be beter person and hopefully i can win ur heart with my own way...6 month already past by..

i told u human being got self limit..until when they can wait..im not a person who love waiting for result..i only do this to u because i love u...six month is enough for me to know u beter.. i dunno..what action be taken...

love jazz

2009-11-05T01:31:00.006+08:00

jazz really make me fly..but i feel older when listening this genre..wat the hack i just listen to this crazy instrument make me feel great.. the harmonic voice direct flowing into the heart..juz make me feel damn relax n calm..so ppl ask me what u listen for i may say wih loud and proud saying LOVE JAZZ..haha listening to mocca right now and i keep listening..their lyric just super awesome..teasing ppl yup always been telling the truth what going around them..i can feel cause it similar things happen to also..

about me today i dunno laaa...right now i crazies with one beautiful girl like i fall in love again..but this feeling is different from before..now i cant resist my feeling on her and always thinks like she always beside me doing the stuff together...crazies right i totally in angau state haha..

yalaa actually its hard to involved in love with someone attach with somebody for long duration...like me she already attach with that soldier bouy for almost 4 years and me 6 month i guest so..last time 4 month ago i just won 30% of her heart but now walaaaa i gain 19% more so totally 49% haha so cool rite..im hepy wat..pedulilaa what ever ppl think i crazy enough..just trust my self and let be me my self..

feeling ooo feeling...what a crazies thing happen to me..

glace of her ^_^

when we was young~

i dunno what i thinking right now

2009-10-28T16:09:00.004+08:00

sigh...this things tingling my brain..

today i am happy person..yalaaa i can meet her for such a long time and meet her mom ever more..yeah for sure her mom like me...that what i thinking... we share joke, we laugh, they talking family issue front of me treat me as one of them..fun...

i realize few hint.her mom saying "nnt kena ada 5 drawer 1 for u n rest for ina" the she silent, me either...my inner voice said omg..and during makan2 she said about his cousin got married with sarawakian ppl and she fine with it and few more la..i assume that was a green light for me..

now i just wait for ina..i know she got double feeling with me..its okey..i still waiting..dunno until when..yeah i done some mistake today..hopefully she forgive me...okeh let focus..i got exam tomorow so i need study like a smart person..i already know i will not perform this paper..so why i so worried that much..i just aiming for past. if i go an A it was bonus for me..neways i already cover 5 chapter got 7 more chapter to go..ganbate..i do my best..

n miri wait me i will coming soon..miriiiiiiiiiiiiiii

reverse thinking...complexity to simplicity thats was me

2009-10-07T03:10:00.007+08:00

rite i am sitting at MCD wondering things to write.i juz wan to clear up my mind for today so by any chance i read this treat again its remind of me for tonite..get ready to get brain damage if u think cannot accept the way of i thinking...and its ur rite to say im wrong and u can voice out anything u wan..but think wisely about the statement...

1)everyone thinks them self a totally rite
2)expression by face can conclude everything in any situation
3)the best option us trying to blame other ppl to cover up their mess
4)most of ppl will judge ppl from outside n not trying not to understand how the situation that contribute to stress..
5)not everyone can control them self in a rash condition
6)ppl a tend to talk bad rather than good
7)its hard to forgive ppl
8)brain is a give from Allah S.W.T to human

i love to thinks that create how is me rite now..so hard to find ppl which really understand me..im 23 years old..still young..i know that..the art of how i thinks a bit different from other ppl near my age..i don't care how ppl judge me? i believe they tot i hav problem in my brain..i love to look at things which a ppl ignore on it and people a not realize it at all..ppl will never understand me..i will not blame ppl when looking at me tot i am weak,fragile, easy to manipulate and if i end my life being single, i have no regret..m i crazy enuff..yeap..i admit...deal wan c i change..let it be..

sigh what a week day make me weak

2009-10-04T16:25:00.003+08:00

yup too many assignment need to be done in this week when i count it must be 4 to 5 assignment on progress..im over stress rite now. seriously beg to all people around me don't trigger my emotion right now. don't let my satan out from my inner body. believe me so u won be regret.

owh ya i taking advise from my lecturer to create another blog related to food..yup my last project which does not longer. but i must create one as become my propfolio.. something i learn during i study..right now im deciding name for new blog.. to many project right now dunno which one to start and all important..sigh~

philosophy

2009-09-28T08:55:00.003+08:00

there were many things i learn during all the journey that i gone to. i had realize the idea of creation of different characteristic of human being base on 3 thing. which are yes, no and maybe.this things come by opportunity and choice that bring to decision of yes, no and maybe. for me yes and no is come from our choice but maybe something that unthinking able happen us. opportunity come by choice which we decide by yes and no. what ever decision on yes and no will created another link which come by another choice. base on decision we make it will be develop a characteristic which a different and uniq from other people. maybe is something that uncontrollable by all that mean what ever decision on yes and no will be carry us to the goal that we wanted so much turn to otherwise. simple situation, i studies in hotel line aim to be a great chef but come the time i end up with my life not become a chef but be a pilot. something out of bond on what we doing to achieve something which the payment on what we doing turn to otherwise.

a song for black cat Kuroneko No Tango

2009-09-27T09:03:00.002+08:00

salam to all great gemoks fan..ahaks i dunno if i got fans maybe few of my fren a following my blog..thx...

nothing really amusing happen during my raya. for me this year raya is fun but not really that fun fun i mean super duper fun funn..what else greater celebrating raya with mom and dad beside u..what else greater when first syawal seating with family members eating and fighting for best lemang, ketupat, klupis(similar like ketupat but it was wrap by daun palas)and our special sup- sup payau(kijang)...i miss that...

neway abaout keroneko no tango song..its was too cute and i decide to post on my blog..cute n funny coz the boy singing this song is trying for the best to sang on making a perfect song..u can feel it if u hear to song..its was a nice song and damn funny..credit to Mas for giving me this great song..thx thx

Kimi wa kawaii, Boku no kuroneko
Akai ribonga, Yoku ni au yo
Dakedo tokidoki, tsume wo dashite
Boku no kokoro wo nayamaseru
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo
Lalalalalala lala
nyaao

Suteki na kimi ga, machi wo arukeba
Warui doraneko, koe wo kakeru
Oishii esa ni, ikaretchatte
Atode naitemo, shiranai yo
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo
Lalalalalala lala
nyaao

Yoru no akari ga, minna kietemo
Kimi no hitomi wa, gin no hoshi yo
Kirakira hikaru, kuroneko no me
Yoru wa itsumo, Kimi no mono sa
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko
Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Neko no me no you ni, kimagureyo
Lalalalalala lala

Kirakira hikaru, kuroneko no me
Yoru wa itsumo, Kimi no mono sa

Kuroneko no tango, tango, tango
Bokuno koibito wa kuroi neko
Dakedo anmari itazura suruto
Aji no himono wa (nyaao)
Oazukeda yo
Lalalalalala lala

awesome...

picture of my niece

2009-09-23T16:32:00.006+08:00

my tok jah...candit picture ghehe

aku menanti kehadiran dia saban hari

2009-09-22T22:49:00.002+08:00

sunyi sunguh jiwa ini tanpa kehadiran dia..tp aku harus menelani ia juga..tp takala syawal tiba terubat hati ini apabila lensa camera ku berbunyi merakam segala aksi dan ragam orang di sekeliling aku..anak buah aku terutamanya begitu gamat beraksi di depan lensa kameraku..aku hanya insan yang duka dan sunyi terubat girang melihat telatah anak saudara aku yang kini genap 17 orang..tak sangka cucu tok khatijah begitu productive..itulah kiraan sepupuku..

terasa pegun melihat pengikutku sebanyak itu..bilakah aku pula yang menambah nombor yang semakin bertambah..melihat kegembiraan itu menbuat aku ketawa kecil dan tersenyum..anak-anak buah aku begitu menyayangi aku, berebut-rebut datang kepadaku setibanya aku tiba di sisi mereka..aku begitu manja terhadap mereka begitu juga mereka melayani aku..pakcik alem itulah gelaranku..

anak-anak kecil tidak takut terhadapku, mereka rela di dukung oleh ku berbanding orang lain takala pertama kali bertemu..lembut dan dan gebu kulit bayi berusia berapa bulan aku belai dan ku bawa kesana kemari bermanja-manja dengan mereka..terasa begitu selesa...tidak dapat aku gambarkan dengan tulisan semata-mata..apa yang aku ingin sampaikan apabila melihat mata anak-anak kecil ini begitu bersinar..itulah recruit penyikut baruku..

kembali ke raya pertama aku berada di perantauran..aku beraya dengan keluarga teman..detik pertama kali aku bersalaman dengan ahli keluarga itu perasaan kekok melandai kelibat hati kecilku..aku tabahkan diri supaya dapat menyuaikan keadaan sekeliling..mujurlah aku sudah biasa dengan keadaan seperti ini..ini bukan pertama kali aku menbuat lawatan seperti ini..

apa yang menbuatku tersenyum adalah sudah menjadi tradisi aku mengakhiri lawatan aku dengan menikmati juadah satey..seingatku saat perpisahan ketika lawatan aku ke kuantan diakhiri dengan juadah satey..aku tersenyum kecil..

adakah jalan hidup aku ini menceriakan diriku..jawapan iya mahupun seketika..aku adalah lelaki, lelaki secara lumrahnya inginkan pasangan yang berlainan jantina..aku mahukan kehadiran wanita yang menbawa seri kepada hidupku..aku mahukan seorang isteri yang membinbing aku ke jalan yang di rehdai Allah S.W.T. aku mahukan keberkatan dari sang pecipta yang maha esa..aku cumalah manusia biasa..

kembali menjadi rider pada jam 2pagi

2009-09-16T12:40:00.005+08:00

recently i being me juz like last semester which mean becoming morning rider..juz feel love riding my moto during early morning with no jacket..i dunno to describe dat feeling but help me to think n think n do more thinking..love doing that

Enuff about that..

Im inpatient to go travel right now..eager back to the long distant road which i enjoy to do...such a lovely place to visit..i juz cant wait..bless me during my journey

fix it fix it

2009-09-11T03:01:00.003+08:00

recently i almost forget where i put my stuff even i also left my stuff in far away fromm me such my 18mm-55mm lens i think i left it in kelana jaya then my jacket i accidentally left it at my friend house somewhere in Klang. What else..owh yaa today i almost left my sweater in my class..so i need to fix it...owh ya please fix this too emmm i losing with my roommate 6 time in row playing that bloody chess.. damn it

second post on 090909

2009-09-09T11:41:00.004+08:00

To Nur Mazlina Ramli,

Dear,
I try my best to gain my happiness back but its keeping me fails. When involving with feeling its seems very hard to be cure. You know how is my feeling between you and me. How can i just forget that easy and if i do that i will be a man with no feeling. Its may took time to be cure. Just give me few day to get calm, not me alone its include you too my dear. Don't blame your self, its not your fault but us. Us who a create this mess. Enough torture your body and soul. how can i get my smile back if you in that condition. Promise me to smile like we do before. promise that..

your ......,
mok

adakah aku menjadi seperti dulu..ohh tidak

2009-09-09T02:51:00.004+08:00

dulu sebelum blog ini bernafas aku juga menulis blog.tetapi blog tu aku sudah lupuskan dari kelibat kehidupan aku. mana tidak blog itu menulis cerita kesidahan aku. lebih banyak menceritakan keperitan hidup sebagai seorang manusia bernama Mohammad Halim Jeinie. aku tidak mahu lagi menceritakan kisah-kisah hidup aku yang perit itu. aku sendiri muak dengan penulisan seperti itu. bagi aku sampah takala ketika itu blog adalah tempat aku melepaskan duka lara yang aku hadapi. aku tak nak peristiwa itu berulang. sedangkan ketika ini aku melakukan perkara yang sama ketika aku sunyi seperti kehidupan aku sebelum ini. aku tidak mahu meraih simpati atau menarik perhatian orang lain. tetapi inilah medium aku meluahkan segala-galanya.

aku manusia yang tidak pandai bertutur. kata-katakan mampu menbunuh orang tetapi penulisan aku boleh menghiburkan orang. itulah aku...bagi aku menulis adalah dari isi hati sedang kan bila kita bertutur banyak aspek yang perlu di jaga. orang ramai menaggap aku kejam apabila aku bercakap. aku lebih banyak bercakap bedasarkan logik akal dan fakta. aku banyak kali bertengkar dengan sahabat-sahabat aku kerana sifat aku yang tak mudah di tundukan.aku tidak pandai meluahkan isi hati aku dengan bertutur. aku lebih suka menulis kerana menulis lebih banyak menberikan aku masa untuk berfikir. aku lebih tenang menulis.itulah kelemahan aku.

aku dah merepek dan aku tak tahu apa yang aku tulis di atas..aku penat...

waiting for another smile

2009-09-07T21:39:00.002+08:00

actually i look normal outside but my heart really burning painful..i just make a decision which no one able to make..its very pain..damn pain..its burning..i am still waiting for another smile which can get rid the burning pain..now i assume i am free aka being single back..but my heart still not yet opening for another woman..shit what i blogging about

its about bad dream

2009-09-06T08:54:00.003+08:00

hopefully it was not a bad sign for me..so afraid it will happen to me..any detail from the dream will not discuss..neways i like this song hehehe let sing together..

Ku Impikan Bintang - Sean Ghazi

Ku impikan bintang jatuh ke bumi
Menyinari awan yang berat hujan
Dalam kegelapan malam
Bintang membawa harapan
Sinaran cinta kita…

Belailah daku dalam dakapan mu
Semaikan ku dalam mimpi-mimpi mu
Bila berdua, indah segala
Se-akan kita di syurga
Ku berdoa agar cinta kita
Seperti bintang yang menyinar

Nyata bintang tak kan jatuh ke bumi
Namun kita ‘kan jatuh cinta

*

Bila berdua, indah segala
Se-akan kita di syurga
Ku berdoa agar cinta kita
Seperti bintang yang menyinar

Nyata bintang tak kan jatuh ke bumi
Namun kita ‘kan jatuh cinta…
Semestinya ‘kan jatuh cinta

what a uniq lirik~

i know the lyric n the topic on this treat was not relevant but don't care at all..sukati laa..

i wan to write about malas

2009-09-05T14:49:00.007+08:00

yeap i know everyone feel the same things. i bet my girlfriend feels the same way too..ahaks..today i woke up early 4 am then wait until the azan then continue sleeping until 9.30 am..then i realize its already almost 3 pm..i just baring in front my lappy watching a few movie, surfing, farming n mafia on facebook..being a lazy man..

bukan apa i don't want to go out the because yalla macam2 outside there, sexy ppl (can reduce my pahala posa), healthy reason, saving, bored, indeed its nothing to do outside there...seriously i rather go travel right now..love old day but for the moment i just feel comfort doing nothing..ops i said it..nolaa i just brain storming my brain on my research..just to get few idea what to wrote..

oh back on malas things..i get a brilliant idea from my friend..its sound funny but its working to me aaah but not today..emm the idea is like this..instead using world malas why don't we use word as rajin to replace it..yup rajin is opposite meaning to malas.

aa still didn't get me kan..hehe try this..saya tersangat malas hari ni..change word malas to rajin..saya tersangat rajin hari ni..yup sound funny but it generate our brain to be rajin rather been malas..try on its working for me..its may be working to be rajin a bit..okey insya-allah it might help..farewell now..got movie to watch.. peace

broken heart broken soul

2009-08-29T16:07:00.000+08:00

sigh~

wake up at 11 am on first day of fasting

2009-08-22T12:10:00.008+08:00

after i wake up,normal thing to do i will open my doom room window for the sunlight. amazingly i am not believe what just i saw. the were no such activity for normal day outside my window. usually i saw a bunch of people walking on the district but today where is the guys?? and the road a clear from mess creating by human being.activity by people a less down there. My expectation after 5pm will different from 11 am view because place where i get shelter from unbalanced whether. Down the block people a selling food for "berbuka puasa". so it will be a lot of activity can be seeing from my window.

Selamat berpuasa untuk saudara seagamaku

2009-08-21T17:42:00.004+08:00

well happy celebrating fasting month to all my friend

target for this fasting month-
- puasa penuh
- reduce weight
- trying all pasar malam on every section Shah Alam area
- capturing lots of picture anythings related on puasa n raya
- trying to enjoy my self since i know i be celebrating raya in KL alone
- erm i think thats it..

penuhi iman anda dan selamat berjuang menjaga kesihatan kalian semua semasa wabak selsema babi mengila

bang on my head

2009-08-12T00:39:00.002+08:00

i always love u as long u a not legally attach to someone suite to u...

everyone a sick rite now..i talking any1 around me got syndrome of fever..its weird bila selsema babi become chaos it makes ppl get fever easily...before the news was not spread into malaysia citizen its few when listen to ppl got fever easily..haiyaaa macam2 laa

worried laa..

ramdom again

2009-08-04T22:10:00.004+08:00

ermmmm ntah la when i shot this kind of photo

KOTA BHARU i been here already :p

helmet taken at teranganu during 5 day trip

staring the sky remind me the beauty of this universe

amoi pc fair

2009-08-02T10:07:00.004+08:00

run from rusuhan haram on 1 august field report

2009-08-02T09:45:00.005+08:00

jengka trip

2009-07-26T23:15:00.004+08:00

macho kan ahaks :p so long i not been uploading my pic..this is my latest one :)

why whyy whyyyy

2009-07-24T20:30:00.003+08:00

why wen i use to argue wih malay women kan after they give up argue wih they usually use tuhan say like dat, or ustaz or ustazah say like that..wen i ask for surah, firman or hadiz or name of the uztaz n ustzah they won giv me n den they say they won talk to me forever..hahaha funny..bukan apa if u wan argue me without actual fact juz wasting ur time n make u x puas ati..hahaha...

aaa

2009-07-23T08:25:00.007+08:00

ahaa dont worry i still alive

malas to get thru every day life in shah alam, since every day got classes and i been seen this faces for almost 2 years. i dunno lar what wrong with me..im keep avoiding from them..now days i enjoy doing my own stuff which were lepaking in my room without doin nothing and sometimes go out wih my borneo frens.

my borneo frends were all grats..salute with them..ahaks

im super bored rite now..dunno what to...my rokok finish liao so i CAN'T SMOKE~

hopefully my lecturer allowed me to ponteng them class on 6,7 august so i can follow to sekayu forest as being photographer serve for my bro research member. i had been invited by them so seriously i wanted to go but c laa...

VIRGIN FOREST ba itu!!

menanti minit berdetik

2009-07-16T08:02:00.004+08:00

tidak sabar menghabiskan pengajian aku ini,
aku juga takut untuk meninggalkan zaman pengajianku,
aku berasa cukup tahu dimana reality dan fantasi dalam bidangku,
bagiku kehidupan sebagai tukang masak adalah satu dunia yang berlainan dengan lain-lain profession,
dimana kami berkerja siang dan malam tanpa mengira masa,
dunia kami sebagai tukang masak hanyalah di dapur,
menakut kan.......
aku berasa gentar apabila memikirkan memiliki mahligai bahtera yang aku hajati,
aku tidak mahu rasa kurang yang kebahagian itu berpunca dari aku dan lubok rezeki aku,
aku juga sama seperti manusia lain yang inginkan kebahagian itu,
selain berdoa kepada Mu Ilahi aku juga berusaha mengerja sinar itu,
aku mahukan diri aku yang berada di situ dan bukan diriku yang palsu,
aku nyatakan begini kerana manusia ini pandai berpura-pura,
tidak perlu aku jelaskan lebih terperinci,
apa yang aku harus buat ketika ini bersussh dan bersenang, besusah di tengah dan besenang lenang kemudian.....

lame thing happen to me

2009-07-15T21:28:00.004+08:00

im sory coz i kept pushing her too much..i juz realize that..i must be chill but the reason is i just wan to address my feeling which i care about her so much that its..hopefully i done a correct move..hopefully

good bye everything

2009-06-29T18:01:00.003+08:00

finally my limit to studies already out of limit. i have no interested on study but i got 6 month left to complete my studies so i will finish it. study is fun because so many thing to do and we kept learning new things. unfortunately my case were different i kinda get bored to the political thing happen around me in uni. i will not blame anyone particular but the one the make thing worst its me my self.

i wanted study on new thing about culinary something new which i never explore. i wanted work with fun environmental with everyone were smiling. i wish i can study in harmonic, peace environmental wish no hatred among each other. i wan get rid bad feeling among each other. take it easy with everything happen because human usually make mistake and they got ego to cover the weakness on then self.

going back to kl mean back to the torture machine which can pull my spirit from my live body. but this is live which i must go threw..

sesudah hari menjadi jinga

2009-06-01T18:11:00.004+08:00

kalam buta mandian di tepi telaga
riak kocak air gamit pelihatan

sunyi bagaikan burung tiung kehilangan suara
daun-daun kuning menari-nari apabila sang bayu berlalu

damai laut senja tiba
hatiku tak terkata

bila sunyi memecah suasana
ingin hati ini terkubur bersama

yatta yatta

2009-05-29T09:09:00.004+08:00

its so easy yoshhhh~

seeing a bunch of Japanese half naked bouys dancing with kewl n awesome dance in the morning..hahaha....

damn last evening dream was a nightmare...sigh~

what on the earth!!

2009-05-28T21:29:00.003+08:00

well i recently hearing someone screaming on my neighbor happening around this moment..i wonder what actually happen..i don't want to busy body with people problem..but the screaming annoy me so badly..the screaming that i heard is ladies voice and i not sure what actually happen..tonite i can see the source from my corridor..my eye saw two person on that room..a guy is holding the scream girl..and the voice stop hearing so im back to my room..

so the point is im very respect with girl and i protecting them as i can..why must we do the violence, why we can live in peace and serounding with love..why must we do thinking in negative manner...why why why..

off story..its done...now return to me...

wasai so bored... i inpatient wanna go trip with my family..so i back on traveling again wuhoooo

leave the darkside behind..let the sun rise sun

2009-05-25T15:58:00.002+08:00

hehe..it juz a gimick only..haha...hav anyone watch igor...should watch it..it perfect..hehe

random picture

2009-05-24T22:31:00.006+08:00

kiss me againnnnnn

2009-05-22T12:04:00.002+08:00

hehe i been listening to ben brother rapidly...awesome song!!!

time to be jiwang

2009-05-21T21:28:00.003+08:00

its always been u..no other person can i think off when the silences serounding me...even we never declare on anything, the word of showing the love were less day after day but deep inside me u already win my heart...the most important things is the understanding, honestly, and the pure love with come from the heart play biggest roles in the relationship....

the lobster hehehe

2009-05-18T18:24:00.004+08:00

fresh from the sea..my mom kinda syiok hehe

hehe fresh lobster nyum nyummm

miri versus loneliness

2009-05-16T23:14:00.002+08:00

hehe my fren all busy..no one can entertain me here..my whole time spending wih my lappy n kebon..yup...i hepy being back to miri..but i get bored wih nobody around me i mean to have conversation..im supe bored..

at home i cook n cook n cook

i getting more fatter n fatter...

kebon fascinate me..the new house so damn great..love it so much...love the view..love the wind..love the atmosphere...so lovely

next month will be month of hard work..have to tanam sawit n menbaja sawit..covering few ekar..n berbukit with rain weather...so the anak sawit will be 3 time more heavy n the naik bukit fuyoo...hehe hopefully can lose some weight skit la hehe

klah later on i post the pic place that i work on...c laa if i rajin enuf to post it..klah hav fun guys

cerita tentang si lapa dan si dahaga (cerita ini hanya nukilan yg tidak menbawa apa-apa makna tersirat)

2009-05-02T08:36:00.005+08:00

al kisah si lapa berjalan2 di tepi pantai yang damai dan ketika itu si dahaga sedang bermain air serta rakan-rakannya.. gelak girang memecah suasa pantai..ketika itu si lapa menyisi kesunyian diri dengan merakam detik-detik yang kemuncak kegembiraan dengan lensa berteknologi rendah..senyuman terukir merakam sesuasa sedemikian..

agak lama memerhati keriuhan tiba-tiba suasana bertuka menjadi kesunyian yang melampau..entah menyapa si lapa berasa sepi..ketika itu si lapa meningalkan si dahaga yang asyik leka bermain air bersama rakan-rakannya...selepas sebatang balutan tembakau habis di dinikmati..si lapa kembali ke pantai..sambil melihat sepasang burut pipit sedang merengek di bangku pantai..suasana diri kembali sepi sesepinyaa..

melihat sepasang pipit yang rancak berkicauan terdetik di jiwa betapa indahnya jikalau memiliki pasangan..si lapa datang ke pulau tanpa di rancang dan dengan jiwa yang kosong...si lapa kembali ke gigi lautan nan luas..melihat suasana yang aman...sunguh damai pemandangan ketika itu...perasaan romantis terasa di hati..

melihat si dahaga bejalan besama rakan-rakannya menbuatkan pelbagai persoalan..tertanya adakah senyuman yang di berikan menpunyai makna kesedihan..itulah yang jelas kelihatan..alangkah senang sekali jika si lapa dapat menyelami maksud itu..

hari belalu pergi~

panas panas

2009-04-28T16:04:00.004+08:00

it very hot here sigh

hermm trip to melaka n negeri sembilan was fun...still remember those day..hehe

panas panas i cannot tahan..

its really easy to me to decide either to live single or to have girlfriend :p

memang she already got boyfriend and i only a best friend of her or actually her scandal..that is what her mention to her mom..

we have so much fun lately..that weird feeling start flow over into my heart..

this is my first time since 23 years of existent being treat special by opposite gender..feel so special..u know that kind of feeling if u a into with it..

feel like a butterflies..that i always said..hehe

i love observing butterfly..the pattern of the wings, colur, the way its fly, so beautiful and more i like is the way butterfly dance overflow with the wind, clapping its wing, finding flower for food..so fascinating..

i don't have power to decide..i left to her on deciding this matter..let give her a time even took several time..no rush lets she decide what she deserve..to choice a soldier who serve for the country or just a normal fat guys or somebody else hehehe

klah..too hot my brain already half cook n if i can perah this tilam i think memang banjir my room hehe..

its been 2 day

2009-04-24T12:04:00.002+08:00

yeahhh being malas..fuhhhh actually still don't have mood to study for next paper..owh i still got three paper to do..wahaha...pengsan siot...

hermm...tomorow la going back to shah alam p library..n then take past year paper..hihi..malas nyaa..

yahooo my law sux

2009-04-21T20:34:00.005+08:00

i can smell i only can can get B- for law n i smell B+ for the ctu...i cant focus doing my law paper..so thirsty make my mouth drain n i felt dehydrated..10 day of holiday so i can spend at least 4-5 day on playing game..hehe..1 whole that wih ehemm..n rest study lor..

thx to my dear coz help me out to be more focus heh..study alone at kolej make me feel sleepy.. the tabligh senyap already with me because he make my door nearly broken..do u know y my door broke hehe..this is funny..haha but biar laa we a human memang x tahan with setan around us..the door broke because he wanna check either im in my room coz i always lock my door..so he push so damn kasar sampai the lock nearly bengkok..so i have to put notice at my room to get easy wih my door..

haha baru skarang he stop checking me.. n funny is y that day he so eager to check me...aha..kantoi wih me...he watching porn..funny...im okey wih ppl watching porn ..yala to experience new things haha..so he kinda senyap wih me because shame on me kali kot..

he the one kejut kan me pagi2 until my door goona tercabut memang la i seda that day because i always wake up very early but sengaja wanna see how semangat he is 15 min ba he try every 2 min he ketok..but its okey la for suboh prayer i don't mind at all..that dude really kasa..i dunno why he wan to check me all the time..that make me sick..da la my room messy...klah enuff for now..don wan la crita pasal him..everyone got diffrend story..but this is very funny tabligh guna kain pelakat pakai kopiah watching that kind of muvie..wearing kopiah funny laa

kambeng

2009-04-20T14:48:00.004+08:00

dunno what title should be put..so i think of kambeng then i put kambeng as title..doesn't have any implied meaning..

yeap u my dear memang u will read my blog..

hehe but better u don't read this post unless u very eager to read :p

ntg much to say..

i know how complicated ur problem is

success rate on ur side to accept me is only 20 percent..no further discussion about that..that is only my estimate..

i notice that risk when i first meet u my dear.

i only wanna make u feel hepy even i already know the risk..

if we suite each other we got long way to go..

tooo longggggggggggggg

tu ja laa...

off story jap...

hohoho

final coming final coming takot takot takot

teketaq lutut nih cuak punya pasal...

prepare for final wih joy

2009-04-19T03:28:00.004+08:00

hehe..i seriously enjoy my life..but i worried on something that beyond what i thinking..but life must goes on..

i must prepare my self as much i can..equip mentally, psychical n emotion very well..ntah laa..this kind of weird feeling overwhelming on my self..sometime i cant control it n most of time i still can manage it..hehe

to enter this kind of new world is like the dream come true..but still on her to decide on..i dun wan to be batu api, i don't want her suffer because decision i make..so her decide what her wan not me..because her knows her self better than other person..

okey laa..i got 2 chapter to hafal before the exam..klah hav fun n all the best for the final!!

wahh

2009-04-15T10:30:00.003+08:00

so much fun yesterday..i totally enjoy my life..seriously im malu when singing a song..but yesterday like macam kluar berabis nih..hehehe...hermm i lost my word im kinda hepy right now..hepy of being halim..haha ada juga orang yg suka sama saya..hehe i must enjoy this moment before anything that unpredictable happen..

amoi amoi :p

2009-04-13T09:31:00.007+08:00

those picture taken at pc fair recently..

im stupid enuff

2009-04-10T03:46:00.006+08:00

oooo my curiosity killing me again..im sux on handling woman..im still not good enough on doing that..i still need to explore more on playing with word on woman which..those things were difficult for me on making that happen..i know my self better..i dunno if i be like this being single forever..i lack senses of humor, im not good in sweet talking, i am good on make people angry and piss off with me, im horrible kind of people but deep inside on me only people who knew me knows what is the beauty inside me..

i try to help people as much i can but started from today i must be cruel a bit..because good people will be bullied by people who a not thinking of sensitivity of people and for their own benefit..

hermmm...

n serious shit french language works sucking my ball a lot

gamba penari kanak2

2009-04-08T13:37:00.002+08:00

haghaiahuahaa

2009-04-06T21:58:00.002+08:00

wah 1 week left to end this semester...so fast the time left us..hermmmm still don't have any girlfriend yet...hahaha 1 more semester left...sempat ka hihihi

bersifat berfikiran lebih terbuka

2009-04-03T07:47:00.001+08:00

aku pun tak pasti apa yang akan terjadi selepas detik jarum jam tu berlalu..aku hanya mampu merancang dan berusaha demi mencapai keselesaan itu..jangan amek mudah atas segala kejadian..berfikir secara matang dan terbuka insya-allah selamat

joy n fun...pangkor island second trip

2009-04-01T02:53:00.003+08:00

pangkor oh pangkor

2009-03-30T09:49:00.004+08:00

What a lovely place n a horror place :p

so hardly to erase ur face!!

2009-03-25T23:02:00.003+08:00

so hard...i dunno what else to do..what only can i do is only wait...wait for the unclear answer n by the observation...seriously i still have those kind of feeling on her and for several month i still manage to control....but lately i hardly to fully control..i afraid those things will burst out..i don't want to make another mistake..i wish the relationship will go for long period..but im still flexible..i am waiting someone can win my heart..im still waiting...to make another move sadly to say i have no courage on doing that...im so afraid if i might fail again..

sepi~

walaoweii

2009-03-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

suddenly i felt so lonely and i dunno why...lately i am to busy settle things and baru skarang i have time to be alone...i enjoy this time of moment but biasalaa i felt lonely heh...

so sepi~

blogging by phone..heh

2009-03-23T10:52:00.002+08:00

hehe im bored in class..so im playing wih net..herm..another week of torturing..hermmm

wah wah wah

2009-03-20T06:57:00.002+08:00

budjet lari siot......

menblog kisah alem

2009-03-17T00:59:00.002+08:00

cis i dunno y i cannot sign in my yahoo msger..i think i gonna format this labtop..aiyaa...

waseh im back on my track to join the industry as hotelier..semangat!!!

somedays i will be a master chef...insya-allah....

that is my target beside traveling trough the world...yeahhh!!!

hermm

2009-03-11T23:51:00.003+08:00

waaa she look stunning beautiful tonight..very hard for me to avoid facing that innocent face, i cannot resist to turn my face in opposite way...seeing of that face give me some sort of weird feeling which i can't describe by my own word..but who am i to be in her life..i just a normal dude without anything to proud off..i just kampong boy who wish to get life in simple way..

wahhh i miss the island

2009-03-11T13:26:00.005+08:00

hehe i suppose blogging about the island since i not enough time(lots of essment) so i hold for few day until i got enuf time to think nice and suitable word about what happen in the island..haha but i really had fun on the island..manyak syiok coz for 4 month i dont see the beaches and the sea..i really miss all those things..reminds me of miri...

but right now i wan talk abaout me me and me...

entah laa every beautiful ladies i meet mesti got bouyfriend sigh~ but this is good for them i nvr dis moralize them even i support them..this is only i can do to kept the relation to be their friend..i don't mind at all..seriously..

memang about the promise i make before being curse for me...its okey...right now i already know who am i so its my duty to cheers someone in problem and sharing their tough...

nasib all the ladies paham me...alhamdulillah...i don't mean if i approach ladies for seeking for love but to study their personality by that i can improve what i lack on me... im afraid on what the ladies think on me because on im so eager to know about them...i afraid they think i fall in love with them...silap...my definition on fall in love different..but i mengaku i like all the ladies that i approach as my dearest friend....

im not a kind of busy body...i just care and concern about them..not just ladies but among my male friend..i dunno when is my turn to be fall in love again..hehe

sepi~

questions n anwers

2009-03-02T01:14:00.009+08:00

why must i handle all my problem alone?
god love you halim..

why must i mumbling about my own problem to random people?
i have to do that too cheer me up

do i have a fix person who might listening to my problem?
no

do i happy all the time?
no

do you need girlfriend?
seriously i don't wan to involved in any commitment yet but i only wanted to have someone willing to share problem with me n i can do same thing in purpose to cheer us and helping each others..this is to kept me busy so i don't think about my self to much..

i dunno why i always think about this..if i can get rid this stuff from my head i will be the most happiest men in the world....

random!!

2009-03-01T09:18:00.012+08:00

gulp red cherry ferrari...

naa more then 20 ferrari in front of pavillion..see how rich malaysia people...geramm

owh ya i stuck at monorail bukit bintang for 1 hour without water n food...i just baru finish my shooting at restaurant seri melayu around 8.00..checking the Ferrari for few minute...then with the raining n waiting made me lose some my mind!!

haha i got 3 card from bapa ayam n threw straight away haha.. i walking at bintang walk alone with smart dress n shoes i believe they think im foreigner haha..that y i don't like wear shoes when wondering around kl..

im still in malas mode..okey farewell guys!!

just doing random thing

2009-02-28T00:55:00.004+08:00

pls enjoy :p

BETWEEN THE LIES

2009-02-27T07:57:00.004+08:00

well i suppose to post in my private blog..neway i don't mind to share my secret within my readers..

seriously i would like thanks to her...she shape me into be more positive kind of person..see keajaiban tuhan..i very hepy the way i am right now..u give me a lesson how to survive in this real world..trima kasih bebanyak...

wat ever matter happen its btw us and god..u may has a right to tell anyone u like..u deserve to do it and don't u worry i am okey with everything.. peace

hahaha

2009-02-25T14:03:00.005+08:00

tada~

finally i create new blog- blogtentangkaki.blogspot.com

but only selected people i can invite..haha

sry folk all my secret there..there were a lot of stuff i can write in existences blog.

biasa la takot kantoi hahaha..

owh yaaa don't shop at jusco on every 25th coz they wont provide u any plastic beg...so u have to carry ur stuff without plastic beg..its happen to me today..nasib i only purchase 2 stuff sabun n powder (baby powder)..so it doesn't bother me..hehe

"hidup ini memang penuh dengan palat"

2009-02-23T22:12:00.005+08:00

memang aku yakin 100%...

"dan aku bukan orang kaya tapi orang macam aku cuma berduit"

key i noe that previous cam biasa..

2009-02-23T02:51:00.005+08:00

this is new 1!!!

this is only experiment from newbie like me..i have no intention on anything..

k i promise there will more edit pic from me...insya-allah

no title

2009-02-22T09:54:00.004+08:00

semalam terasa hari kegayishnan yang melampau. itu kedengaran sangat jangal bukan..hahaha bukan apa pertama kali badan yang putih ini diurut dan di uli..bunyi agak seram...tapi hakikat nya ia sunguh nyaman dan berasa sungguh selasa..yang penting ia adalah percuma dan ada dasar pertukaran budaya..

aku mengaku budaya melayu bumiputra adalah berasa malu dalam semua perkara apatah lagi dengan sentuhan pada tubuh badan melibatkan sesama jantina..agak kekok dan jangal apatah lagi orang yang baru kita kenali...ia berbeza dengan berusan tukang urut...

agak nya budaya orang persia tidak kisah..ini pertama kali aku berkawan dengan bangsa asing secara dekat..yang peting kita manusia...bagi aku manusia semuanya adalah sama tetapi berbezaan budaya itu menbedakan kita..

ini menbuatkan aku berasa lebih berminat untuk mengenali budaya bangsa asing...aku berkawan bukan kerana sekadar mengenali secara luaran..tuhan telah mengurniakan satu hadiah kepada aku..iaitu aku mampu melihat manusia itu berada dalam kesusahan dan aku mampu mengenali orang itu secara kasar melalui pandang pertama..bukan semua benda itu tepat tapi dengan itulah aku dapat mengenali dan rapat kepada individu itu..aku tidak riak tapi hanya berkongsi..

dengan mengenal individu yang terpilih ini sedikit sebanyak menbentuk peribadi aku..pepatah melayu berkata buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih..setiap manusia ada malaikat dan syaitan nya..terpulang kepada iman senipis kulit bawang ini menilainya..

arh i envy with my friend because he manage to picture with liyana from estrella..cilaka u zepah..liyana so damn cute~ i wish can meet her sometime..i just love her voice, the vibrator of her voice killing me part by part..imagine that i can't stop listening to her band everyday.. owh yaa naa my first ever picture i manage to edit..i just love this picture..don't get me wrong!!

okey ka

buletin kitchen

2009-02-18T06:59:00.008+08:00

owh yeahh everyone smiling :p....hensem gak me haha

other group..n everyone is smiling :P

chef pocket...spoon, fork and several knife...

woahh the satan screaming....

i like capturing this kind of photo...luv its so much

this is torturing device!! haha no la this is a pot for smoking tandori n chicken kebab

i malas enuff to put food product heh..

aku

2009-02-16T21:10:00.004+08:00

kali ni aku taip dalam bm lak. aku tau lepas kekawan aku bace blog nie mesti dorang akan boooo aku sepanjang aku idup...tu firasat aku..tp aku gatal sangat nk menaip so ambek laa..aku tak kisah langsung...

sebenarnya aku memang tak kisah langsong ape budak kelas nak buat apa kat aku...aku peduli apa..tu hal dorang..aku dah masak dgn perangai sesetengah budak memang di lahirkan dan kewujudan dia kat dunia ni tok meyakit ati org yang berada di sekililingnya..dah dia di bentuk macam tu so trima seadanya laa...sakit ati, meluat, rasa nk tampar suma ada tapi aku pk dia pon mahlok agong tuhan..kalau aku tampar dia, maki dia, dan sewaktu dengannya seolah-olah aku mengeji ciptaan agong tuhan..aku cuma takot balasan dari tuhan tu je..tu aku tak kisah ape skali bentuk pon korang buat kat aku..aku trima seadanya...

sebab aku masih lagi berpegang kata-kata ustazah Asmak..beliau aja aku time diploma..beliau memang cool dan best sesangat..ustazah penah cakap kat anak-anak ni pasal satu benda "jika kita menceritakan satu keburukan org lain maka 10 kebahagian akan ditarik dr kita dan ia akan pas kat org yang kena kutok tu"..lebih kurang laa ayat tu..so patut la aku bahagia semacam :p

aku cakap macam ni seolah-olah aku ni insan yang lemah..tak reti nk lawan..ilek...aku bukan jenis marah2 tp bila angin satu badan naik..insya-allah kelas pon bleh terbalik..sebab aku ni berprinsip peduli apa!!

aku ni dalam kelas aku bley pg kat mana2 click..aku okey dengan sume click dlm kelas..aku still nak bercakap dgn suma org..aku jenis nk berkawan dgn suma orang..so salah kaa aku betegor sapa kat mana2 click...salah ka..yang aku pelik walaupun click tu hampa x suka tp aku bley bergurau ngan click tu so erti kata aku pon pro click tu gak laa...WTF laaa...aku nye suka laa aku nk gurau ngan sapa..aku okey ngan suma org..sbb satu kesalahan kecik orang yang menbenci aku nk label aku cam penjenayah yang kena hukum gantung...n knapa semua org boleh pilih jawatan yang dorang nk dan apasal aku tak boleh.... haruskan org2 yang menbenci aku untuk mimilih jawatan aku kena pegang..aku okey nk letak aku kat mana2 tp haruskan begitu caranya?

aku kecik ati campo geram gak tapi alhamdulilah setan ni tak kuar lagi..aku masih lagi manusia..aku minta maaf bebanyak kalo ada org terasa..aku mengaku aku tulis benda ni dr ati yang iklas..kalo korang x dapat maafkan aku so aku akan cari korang kat akhirat nanti laa..sana kita kira...aku pon manusia gak..mana ade manusia yang ada kat dunia skarang ni 100% perfect..

ape yang aku harap kan project ni jadi n aku memang berharap nak tengok semua orang gembira..

"ya allah ampunilah dosa-dosa rakan kelas ku dan bebaskanlah mereka dari azab api neraka, ya allah ya tuhanku, letakkan lah rakan-rakan ku di sisi orang-orang yang mulia..amin"

arh KFC bukit bintang ruin my mood today

2009-02-15T20:45:00.002+08:00

nonsense KFC as me to add 50 cent for extra cheese on my wedges and the cashier say right now they have to do like that because the economy..but its suppos to be free baa...what a lauya excuse i feel like to bitch slap her..rosak my mood..starting today i don't wan to eat at kfc bukit bintang..i totally boikot that particular KFC...

i watching geng today..that was the best cartun ever malaysia had produce..got style..i like that movie so much..i wan to watch that movie again...i give 4/5 star...good work las kopek production..5 thumb for u guys..nasib that movie okey..if not it totally ruin my day..hehe

kasman day!!

2009-02-14T23:54:00.010+08:00

he was my friend since form 1..after ten of friendship baru i manage to celebrate his birthday..yey...
thanks to his sister n abang ipar because cia us (me and zepah) makan at the curve...thx a lot..hehe

i had no comment for today because the day had been pay off by smile and cheers..

i just an ordinary guys who hunt an angel to be part of my life..i just wan to find someone that when my first blink in the morning she is the first i saw and she is the last i kiss before i sleep...every time i solat i always pray to dear god to hardening my heart..i got such a weakling heart..i dunno what to do beside to pray...i dunno how long can i be in this rate...

amazingly i only thinks this matter after i go out for outing...i will be okay after a nap..its true...yalaa when outing there were a lots of people surrounding me but after going back to my room i felt so lonely..

i like to have people near around me..but not the tabligh sory for saying that..they were okey but in curtain thing i cannot tahan..its good to reminding me to solat im okey with that..i don't like the way them tarik me to join them

im okey to spend 2-3 hours to hear ceramah but to sleep(with them for the sake of tabligh movement) there n doing the ziarah its not me...i wan to sleep at my fren room pun i think many time...n i dont like the way they ajak me....if u a me i will understand..

they always wan to enter my room without knocking n for no reason..n i dunno why they wan to enter my room..i always lock my room when im inside my room..i feel uncomfortable to let my door unlock coz i cannot tahan the heat n i always half naked..i respect them but they have to respect me also..betul baa

ermm enuff for tabligh for a while..live have to continue on..kan kan kan

right now listening to yuna-cinta sempurna, dan sebenarnya, n deep conversation..awesome song..ilike her voice macam buluh perindu..hehehe

klah i tired..i got lot of keja skolah waiting me...KEJA SKOLAH I COMINGGG zzzZZZZZZZ

i had been tagged by lalat

2009-02-11T00:55:00.004+08:00

Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.

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1. my aim to travel through out the world

2. being able to done umrah before i get married...insya-allah

3. my goal to get kurus before i finish my study

4. finish my study on time

5. i don't like wearing boxer or underwear

7. love plain t-shirt

8. i don't like wearing shoes

9. i prefer to sleep naked

10. i love my self

11. i love my family

12. i love dear god

13. I'm perverted

14. I'm like pretty women

15. i love capture random picture

16. I'm hungry right now

17. my ass in pain

18. i miss the ocean

19. i miss miri so much

20. love driving my moto at night

21. i don't have enough concentration to focus on my studies

21. i still think that my self cute

22. can u give me 10 mil ringgit

23. i felt sorry to lailatul azura

24. i admit i have done lots of mistake with her

25. right now I'm happy being single :p

done...n i malas to tag ppl :p

keh...time to reduce some weight

2009-02-10T01:05:00.005+08:00

i dunno y...but kali ni im serious on losing some weight...i wan to look hensem too n im bored to admit my self cute even that its not true..im just fatty white fagot.. im done admit my self cute..time to change...i wan to look great...

being gemok make me lose confidence dealing with something even i have the courage...the courage doesn't enuff..kali ni im serious...but i will lose some benefit being gemok..for me being perverted in this shape people can accept it..i think so..but slalu like that laa...

that mean if i manage reduce my weight i have to stop being a pervert...i think i can do that...insya-allah..

just to satisfy my self n to make clear on empunya diri..

criteria of woman to be part of Mohammad Halim Bin Jeinie life

- tak banyak soal benda yg kecik aka stupid question cth apa laman web avg, avira n kepersky?

-i don't care how she dress or wearing tudung or not..

-she must be intelligent

-she must not too bossy

-she must be other people consider to other people...

-not to much hiding secret..

-she enjoying traveling

-play video games

-she got open minded

-she not timid on one thing

-she must be a positive kind of girl...how to be explain hah...senang laa she a not type that demoralize people..

-i think got more but i can't recall all :p