happy birthday halim

thanks for all the wishes...

officially our hotel officially open

after 6 month on joy and pain..we're a officially open..what ever is past consider history and the new day we take as a opportunity to growth and learn something new..yeah we know all off the staff a so fucking exhausted because everyone work very hard for the grand opening to become the best ever event for the hotel...even me also...working day and night to support all the staff and guest..small scarify i made is to make us happy..

now back on me...
life is complicated..
that all...
chow..

to u!

sememangnya aku segan dgn dirimu..
biar aku pendam sahaja perasaan ini sebab kalau aku bersuara ia akan mengeruhkan lagi keadaan..
naluri hati aku menyatakan diri mu sangat unik dan cukup sempurna sifatnya untuk wanita idamanku..
bagi diri aku peribadi yang kau miliki cukup untuk melengkap diri aku dan seperti mana kehadiran aku di sisi mu mewarnai kehidupan mu..
aku tahu kau gadis tabah, mengambil berat, bersifat kekeluargaann dan sangat penyayang..
dari pergerakan dan perbuatan mu mampu menbawa sifat diriku lebih lengkap..
aku sangat menyukai diri kamu...
sifat kamu dan caramu menbawa diri..
alangkah bahagianya jika jiwamu ku miliki...
cuma Allah s.w.t sahaja mampu mentafsir betapa kebahagian itu..
itulah aku tercari-cari dan mencari...

red kebaya

still can't take make eye from lady with red kebaya..

been ignored

being ignored is so much pain..what to do i put my faith to hand of god..

no idea

i am been depressed lately i dunno what wrong in my mind...obviously maybe i think to much about love..perhaps..arhhh i stress....i wish someone can cheers me and make me smile again...

promise of me

i will prepared gift for my self during up coming sweet 24 years birthday..yeah during birthday ppl expect someone to give something for their birthday...then I'll break the ice by giving a gift to my self..sound awesome right...i decide to give my self a promise..promise to become better person...that its...to be better i need to quit several things..hopefully i manage to do that and i asking any kind of support to my dearest friend for me to change..aite...i hungry and today only eat fruit.......yummy

halim oh halim

hmmmm....fail again to win a heart...keep on searching.....

yehaaa

weeee they are visiting me tomorrow

dear diary

nothing much to say...

word is like virus and everyone will not escape become their victim...let took this situation as example..let say a group of people consist 3 to 4 person start talking about their bad day during working period and one of them decide to quit his job..worst situation their talking in large of crowd and luckily 2 or more people heard their conversation and start thinking the same way too...

this people start talking among their group..because of level satisfaction on working environment is in red level creating the situation become more worst may result of people tend not to working and feel not happy....its become stress and started to thinks quality of life become faded...its happen to me....

12.25 am issue

maybe this is the first bad comment for the hotel..and lucky it was me...sigh....35 minute become 45 minute when end to the story it become 1 hour...only one comment all unrelevent issue also pointing to me..unfair right..this is the reality..i don't have this kind of experience before now i do..i am a better men then yesterday..continue to growth and negative criticize won let me down...god bless me

ah i back

wuhooooo i writing blog again....its been a while kan..hmmmmm...yeah hotel industry is really tough life and quite a challenging..anyways a lot of kejadian happen in few month....

about me,i use getting lonely now because every time i admired with girl, she always attach with someone..dah start dah crita pasal lonely ni....hahaha....so that why i afraid to go for it..i lost my confident..oh yaa...this girl really catch my eye...she are too good for me...she cute and i think she suite for me...

i don want to say she is beautiful because word beautiful is like curse word for me..let me explain why i said that....every time i said the word of "beautiful" to women which i admired, tendency 100% i will get broken heart so i decide will not said it to her even deep in my heart she is beautiful..and worst beautiful ladies is out of my league...which mean beautiful women to majority man's eye a not mean to be with me...accept miracle...hahaha....

so to raf opss i said it..hopefully she won read what i just wrote...yes i do admired u but i too afraid and i not good in flirting or what ever suitable word can replace word of flirt...

and to bu...yes we do have share a lot of common...i wan u to move on i scarify a lot of things to u...i wan u to pursue ur dream..u a intelligent and of course u a beautiful and sexy..haha...someone might get wrong or jealous with the bond between us..and he never understand...

wow...i really got my revenge after several month not posting any treat on my blog kan..glad i am back...i promise to update what ever things happen..n sory if i might hurt ppl feeling..i not tense to do that k...bye

empty

the world so empty right now..i can feel it..after receiving degree i had nothing to do beside gather back my money..with empty world with less friend to depend on and i need someone to listen and voice up about my feeling and taking my moment as lonely man..this is me..i being like this because the hotel which i working right now still under construction and the empty time were filling with classes..i waiting for real action..i pray to be located in main kitchen..i really wan to cook proper fine dining food which to be serve to high-end holiday makers..i wan the credit, i wan to create my own guest or fan of my dish..my aim is high i wan to be executive chef in young age then i can continue with my dream to open up my own project..i need to gather knowledge and everything related on the food industry..

but now i was to lonely this kind of feeling can make me not concentrate on my vision.. i need some whom can i speak up to heard my problem to ensure i following my track..i know they(someone in the industry) can see i had a great future..i am young, educated, high spirit, got my own strategy to growth and it's depend on me my self to make it happen..i am different from others who a same age with me..

i inspired by all the makcik2 willing to study even they told me it very hard to adapt process of learning during their age..i advice them there is nothing possible in this world and depend in the individual to say NO or YES on each decision their make..

about my workplace were awesome place..but i miss the action...

tiada bintang di langit

Hmmm....hmmm

langkawi of langkawi

i miss my camera...seriously...but first of all i wan to get any transport so i can explore more on langkawi..then if i got a time i will return to miri seeing my parent, wondering around at my rest house, chasing boat in the morning seeing if any luck getting a lobster nyumm nyummm...hermm damn i miss miri...

i dunno why i feel langkawi is a place for me...the food kinda cheap, cigar cheap...nusantara methol only rm 3.20, one ringgit of cucur pisang u can get ten of it..not so much entertainment..erk i mean i just don't want to explore on entertainment that much..my live here go work back n sleep..not so much involved with social things..langkawi of langkawi...maybe i stay here at least 5 years if i got a car if no maybe less...my target here first is pelangi for starter because i don't have my degree yet and i got a cable..then after a year will be going to westin then later andaman or 4 session then later will join back my friend on city hotel..

after jump 5-6 hotel i will take a rest go for restaurant then later continue to the hotel or apply for master n phd then be a lecturer...insya-allah..

now going bck to use blog as medium to comfort my self

No mood today..dunno wat i thingking rite now..tomorow i gonna walk on the beach..it might help me to reduce my loneliness cewah..sound like im tooo emo..klah gotta sleep..thx for blog for being good listener..thx

new chapter of our life

Journey bcome a great chef juz begun..1 week i been work here as pizza cook..lucky me every chef help me lot..i know they can see my future..they wan me to get in management lvl someday..every day in here is pain for me but i took this prosess as a training by seeking their advice n learning by my heart..i feel to small in this organization..they train me to be mind like businessman by minimize all the expenses not like a school b4..so lucky to hav them..

But i facing this reality alone..when i need her,she won appear..sad for me coz the only women who i wish to share my joy n sadness does not appear when the time for me to comfort my self..i wish she be able to do same thing..i still waiting for this girl to cheers my life

owh like this

so its end like this..okey...

its been a while

i think that its...enough already to kept going telling lie to my heart..i do jelous to imran, i wan u to be my wife, i wan u be beter person, i will do encourage u to pursuite with ur dream..but until when i be like this..6 months of knowing u make my life colourful but until now i notice u a the innocent girl i ever meet..there a to many to of thing should be improve so u will be btr person..either so i..i keep telling u everything not with empty hand..me myself continue to remind me myself to improving become beter person...

basicly we a same..malas, comfort staying at home without doing nothing, having fun, crying baby and so on...but i wan to improve i drag u along with me so we both can be be beter person and hopefully i can win ur heart with my own way...6 month already past by..

i told u human being got self limit..until when they can wait..im not a person who love waiting for result..i only do this to u because i love u...six month is enough for me to know u beter.. i dunno..what action be taken...

love jazz

jazz really make me fly..but i feel older when listening this genre..wat the hack i just listen to this crazy instrument make me feel great.. the harmonic voice direct flowing into the heart..juz make me feel damn relax n calm..so ppl ask me what u listen for i may say wih loud and proud saying LOVE JAZZ..haha listening to mocca right now and i keep listening..their lyric just super awesome..teasing ppl yup always been telling the truth what going around them..i can feel cause it similar things happen to also..

about me today i dunno laaa...right now i crazies with one beautiful girl like i fall in love again..but this feeling is different from before..now i cant resist my feeling on her and always thinks like she always beside me doing the stuff together...crazies right i totally in angau state haha..

yalaa actually its hard to involved in love with someone attach with somebody for long duration...like me she already attach with that soldier bouy for almost 4 years and me 6 month i guest so..last time 4 month ago i just won 30% of her heart but now walaaaa i gain 19% more so totally 49% haha so cool rite..im hepy wat..pedulilaa what ever ppl think i crazy enough..just trust my self and let be me my self..

feeling ooo feeling...what a crazies thing happen to me..

glace of her ^_^


when we was young~