final 1 alem 0

hehehe so fun doing this final :p

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yey final started tomorrow..i started shaking little bit wondering how hard the final will were..insya-allah i will do the best for this final..so far for the preparation were u know la last minute punya..biasalaa student like us usually will study for last minute..keh.. the cloud started to dark n my tummy were tangling and singing..after all this torture put end i wanna go eat as much as i can cewah no laa i think i still wanna lose some weight..this is not for achieving of good looking but for my healthy..good bye few inch of lemak :p..hahaha..klah..all the best for all my classmate doing final n wish me good luck..peace

sunyi dalam derita

apakah itu sunyi..
bagiku sunyi ialah satu ketenangan
suasana hening menberi ketenangan
ketenangan menbuat aku lebih berfikir
berfikir melampaui daripada sepatutnya..
aku derita kerana kesunyinya itu..
aku mahu terbang seperti helang
itulah kehidupan yang aku mahukan..
aku mahukan kehidupan yang mencabar..
aku mahu merantau ke setiap sudut dunia
kota ke kota
desa ke desa
pulau ke pulau
banjaran ke banjaran
terminal ke terminal
kehidupan selama 22 tahun aku harungin
menbosan kan aku
aku tidak puas dengan kehidupan ini
aku mahukan lebih
nescaya manusia itu tamak seperti itu aku insan biasa
apa yang aku mahukan sekarang ini adalah suasa yang dapat memecahkan kesunyian
aku mahukan seseorang dalam hidup aku
tatkala aku menulis dalam kalam keEMOan
aku sedar hormon dalam badan menguasai diriku ketika ini
aku salah kan hormon sebab aku mengenali diri aku lebih..
aku yakin aku mampu berdepan dengan masalah ini
tetapi minda dan hati aku senantiasa berkonflik antara satu sama lain
jasad aku sebagai perantara
harus menpertimbang segala kemungkinan
ada kalanya aku silap
aku memohon maaf atas kesilapan itu
aku mahukan kebahagian seperti mana orang lain
seperti juga kamu
aku tahu keadaan sekarang
aku adalah pengacau..
aku minta maaf
hanya maaf yang mampu aku lakukan

peluh

masam..
busok...
melekit...
tubuh inii terasa rimas.
peduli semua itu
berlari..
belari lagi...
menuju destinasi
arKHHHHHHHHHHHHkkkk
tidakkkk....
buntu...
jalan tiba-tiba gelap-gelita
sunyi
tapi masih tetap ada masa..

im stress

aku stress..sangat stress..kali ni bagi aku blog dlm bm lak..apamacam...camni laa last 2 mingu ni memang cam laha memang menguji kewibawaan aku sebagai sorang mahasiswa..alhamdullilah sume okey walau cam laha skit...haha..

sedih gak semingu dua ni ade brite x brapa baik aku dengar satu aku dengar ade kawan aku time skolah memengah meningal sbb kemalangan..dia penah masok majalah remaja tok dewi remaja..aku x confirm brite ni lagi..so x nk cakap byk..yang confirm kelas mate aku accident kat sungai buloh terok gak laa..2 mingu dah final accident..sedey amat..aku dah beratos-ratos kali dah dengar org tedekat aku ni accident..gerun gak kat jalan..herm..aku punye mase blom lagi kot..aku x mintak harap x jdlaa.kalau jadi pon harap time tu aku dah BERSEDIA....x puas idup lagi beb..awek takde..hehehe...tu bukan masalah..kan kan..cume rase macam diri aku xde org nak aa..tak syiok aa..

cakap pasal awek..herm..niat aku bukan nak couple straight away..niat aku cume nak kenal die..aku x pakse die..aku harap dia jujur..aku x kesah kalau die cakap..i'm no intention to be with u..its fine for me...at least we can be fren..aku x nak nanti die naik rimas kat aku sbb aku treat die lain macam...tu je..kalau tak suke di kacau well be honest...for me honest is everything..

prinsip aku senang...ko nak buat ape2 lantak laa janji ko hepy x kisah laa kat tepi ko org x suke yang penting being honest tu je...aku tau ko jenis yang lembut..nak jage ati org..well..bagi aku kita hidup kat dunia..hidup dlm community..tp kalau kita nak jage sume sampai kite sendiri susah ati..parah..aku penah dalam situasi ko time diploma..last skali aku di pulaukan...aku ni jadi tempat letak masalah..tu aku x hepy sampai skarang..sbb trauma..aku bkn taknak dgr masalah orang tp kalau org tu mintak tolong..aku letakkan diri aku sebagai dia..aku korban diri aku ni tok tolong dia..aku x penah mintak apa2 balasan pon...tp jgn lupa sahabat..tu je..x kisah orang yang aku tolong tu buat taik.. janji jgn lupe sahabat..bile ko dah lupe sahabat itu aku bengang...

aku skarang ni nk jadi positive...aku nk dapt balik kegembiraan yang hilang..aku nk hepy..macam2 aku invest tok aku...contoh camera tu..alhamdulillah dgn camera tu aku dpt buat banyak kawan..aku jd seronok kenal orang..tp kali ni memang aku letak batas skit..skit laa..tu pon tok bg ruang kat aku sendiri...aku xnak totally depend dekat kawan..aku xnak sampai ada satu ketika kawan aku yang decide hidup aku..aku xnak benda tu..

hal duit aku x kisah..sbb bagi aku duit tu bkn raja segala dunia..walaupun duit tu penting...tp duit tu bleh cari tp.......xpe laa aku dah malas nak naip...klah bai :p

wuhooo...i finish done my part oledi.....

fuhhh lega...fuh fuhh fuhhhh....

uits little miss hopefully u read this..
yeah..it juz for you dear...
what can i understand is... started from now i will stop text you about those feeling things..yeah i bugging u a lot..i know that..i so sry for whatever i did to you...hope you feel release after hearing this :p peace

malas nya today!!

sigh..2moro hav to submit essment..but i think it still lot have to do and even worst i can went back to seri kembangan for online..haha..no la i go back here coz i ned to take few staff and kemas my things ..more then 1 month i not here..wahh...my bilik wow macam kena taufan..messy semacam..haha..tired ah..i gonna go back to shah alam soon...haiya..this 2 week memang kacau bilau..as i tot so..hehe...okeylaa i need to do some work here..i gotta go..

being back stab

i dun wan blog in detail about dis..but this is my first time being back stab..thanks for doing that on me..coz rite now i hav the experience on dat..i nvr before being back stab coz ppl serounding alert of sensitivity and consider wih other ppl problem..we already growing up..we a not a little child nemore...understood...being backstep were so childish..enuff of doing that..lucky u kena kan me..coz i will not take any stutip action and i thank again to person who done this to me...come on sedar laa we leave in community..we need to consider other ppl..if u cant do that go laa find place which no one they n c if u can survive..herm...im okey and im cool...chill...dude be positive...

bohhhhsann

c laa muka bohsan...hahaha this pic taking at pusat inovasi place that i can get free access online without any website block..biasalaa if u online inside itm mostly website were block by the server..i wanna see porn pun susah..hahaha no laa gila apa c porn during time like this..i go here coz malas wanna go cc..here place that i gain peace n no body were here unless the semut n nyamok..sunyi juga laa here...aah i dont care about that..apa mau takot..no body wanna kacau me here...if lucky kena kacau mmg bertuah la me hehehe..kadang2 creepy juga dis place haha..ntg to scare laa....owh yaa i make a record hehehe dah 2 hari im not eating nasi..only roti saja..hopefully i can lose some weight laa by doing that..no mood actually to eat yalaa keja banyak n hav to save some money for the trip :p

hehe i planing wanna go pahang insya-allah..but my fren macam erm..dunno laa if x jadi i will stay back at seri kembangan my bro place..without doing ntg for few week..den later or i bored with my live at seri kembangan i will be go back to kedah laa..i wanna go back miri...helping my dad with his kebun..hermm..but awal bulan 12 they we coming here so no point balik miri..owh yaa dis place start creeping me..n tonite malam jumaat..hahaha..oklaa..i think i wanna go..run out bateri not scare..

dear actually i waiting for u but..juz wanna say hi n bye..ntg about personal..yalah i know u will be menyampah rite to hear kan..well i can read women tot...hehe klah bai..

untukMU

UntukMu...

awan mega berlalu pergi
erti setiap detik itu belalu begitu saja..
hari ke hari ku bahagia
tetapi ia akan terkubur juga
pertemuan itu hanya sementara menanti yang bahagia
jika harus... biarlah aku undur diri dengan rela..
agar dirimu gembira selama-lamanya...
aku mengerti dan aku yakin aku bukan pilahan sijelita..
Tapi janganlah kau bimbang jika dirimu bersamaku..
kau bebas melakukan apa jua..
menyibas sayap mu kemana-mana...
tiada konkongan dan paksaan dari diriku..itulah prinsip hidupku dan itulah janji ku....
aku hanyalah insan biasa...
kerna tuan empunya badan lebih mengenali siapa dirinya..
bukanlah diriku jika gagal melihat teman-teman ku bahagia..

diriku tidak pandai bermain kata..
hanya datang dari hati yang iklas..
berlaku jujur ada untungnya..
cuma kita tidak tahu dimana untungnya....

mau parai!!

no la just joking...actually parai mean godai in bahasa iban....

proximate this week....

final 2 week from now then i proximate this week be macam sial skit..hahaha...uni student nightmare...al maklum final weak memang kena torture berabis..hehe

ahaaa

stupid me..ugly me...but this is me..sapa lagi kan if bukan Mohammad Halim bin Jeinie...ah..i thinks i changing a lot laa..i dunno if i can manage my self in this few week...what in my mind is i wanna go travel..i dont care where it is..i wanna go far away from this big city..im not to use to stay in stone jungle for such a long time...here in stone jungle i feel so much tension so much hadache..im thinking macam2 as long here..back in place which were green n i can see blue sky...

seriously i dont mind staying in stone jungle..but for any reason i need my own space which were im prefering to see more green things, blue occean and clears sky..its giv me peace u know..i ned that..okey laa..im bored rite now..time for playing game :p kbai

greeting from shah alam :(

this few pic will remind me of miri...i luv miri so much....

request by fren

control macho

zepah kentut hahah

group photo

joe syikin n wiena

wiena n me

syikin gemok

pimp!!!

tengah nad!!

george was in oren shirt n harvill the black shirt

randy n zepah

big family meeting

hadri!!

big meeting wih fren

honestly laa this is my first time raya at miri.. usually i will celebrate raya at my kampong there..hrmm..got few pic more later laa..stil in NEF format not yet convert to jpeg..bersambung....

i need to get external flash for my slr

sigh i got prob wih shooting night pic without proper lighting..habis spoil my gambar raya..huwaaa...i should get a flash to my slr in short time..i think playing wih slr u need knowledge n patient..i tot playing slr were easy but it won't..i luv the challenging..i wanna take great pic..that is what i wish for..but if u wan to get great pic its doesn't mean u need the slr its self even though u have great knowledge n skill...its was wrong...what u need is true combination btw human n mecha..

to get flash for D60 was easy if u don't hav the knowledge about several funtion hehehe..D60 has own weakness..n i don't realize it before..its has lack several function..yeah D60 is suite for newbie only..hehe..but i still luv my slr...tungu la nanti when i work..i gonna get my own dream slr wih the lens n flash...hahahaha :p

baru balik!!

so much fun raya this year..hehe..syiok bangat seyh...i decide i dun wan bloging about my raya..it was my most memorable memory i can get..so much fun raya at lawas wih my family..hehe hopefully all my fren pon sama having fun celebrating raya..i think dats it for now..kbai